Thursday, August 28, 2003
im cryin...still am. not as hard.. god i hope no one knows.. tryin not to cry out loud..heres what happened
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hey thnkz fer the movie today..it was great
well there's a lot tt i wanted to tell u but nv got the courage too n nv knew how to say it out
i have a bf back in states(dunno if u can guess by now), he's the korean guy tt i once told u abt.
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i dunno y i said yes..mayb out of gratitude,mayb out of compassion..i really
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dunno..but he juz happened to b there when i was facing too much problems at a very difficult time...but as time goes by..i do like him n i dun want to hurt him bcoz ultimately i was the one who said yes(when i cud say no)
howeva my mind was/is in constant turmoil bcoz i liked/like you n it nv change any bit.
i was nv sure of wat was the relationship tt we shared...was it always simply
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frenship? i dunno...but when i received card frm u it really confuses me..i was really happy but wat do u really meant by it i nv knew.
i am really happy to meet up wif u tis time when i'm back here...but it scares me too coz wat the hell am i doing?!!!
the nicer u treat me the worse i felt coz i feel guilty n confused
i dowan to lose u as a fren..all i can say is tt i still love u but i love him too
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i noe tt tis is my bad n my fault i have no one else to blame
all i'm askin fer is tt u will still remain as my fren...a very special someone tt i nv wanna lose
from reply me:
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yea thanks for being honest... more or less what i had expected.
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of cuz i still love..you. anyway... do take care xj. =)
OH dear, i stopped sobbing. well what can i say... shit happens. be strong kelvin...im still gonna ask her out one last time and give her that perlini's silver i bought fer her...100 bucks i tell ya.. now it feels priceless.. just feel lucky that.. at least i was mentally prepared a yr ago.. if this shit had hit me earlier... say a yr ago.. i might have died.. bt now. im... tired.. just gonna chill... cry abit...secretly of cuz.. but i'll be alright.. this god damn shite hurts... not her.. i cant blame her..blame who? blame myself.. if i had been rich by 18.. i would have got to US with her.. but im too god damn poor now. its me... everything that goes wrong is me...its always me... im dissapointed.. haha thats a fukin understatement after the bombshell she dropped on me. i dunnoe what to say... just that i know this shit... and it aint gonna bring me down anymore.. oh god.. that sickening feeling growin in the pits of my stomach. time gonna stop... tell ya tell me.. anyone out there... do i wan to go to my friends with this? NO... handle it alone. bye
Transcript.
You have received a message!
hey thnkz fer the movie today..it was great
well there's a lot tt i wanted to tell u but nv got the courage too n nv knew how to say it out
i have a bf back in states(dunno if u can guess by now), he's the korean guy tt i once told u abt.
You have received a message!
i dunno y i said yes..mayb out of gratitude,mayb out of compassion..i really
You have received a message!
dunno..but he juz happened to b there when i was facing too much problems at a very difficult time...but as time goes by..i do like him n i dun want to hurt him bcoz ultimately i was the one who said yes(when i cud say no)
howeva my mind was/is in constant turmoil bcoz i liked/like you n it nv change any bit.
i was nv sure of wat was the relationship tt we shared...was it always simply
You have received a message!
frenship? i dunno...but when i received card frm u it really confuses me..i was really happy but wat do u really meant by it i nv knew.
i am really happy to meet up wif u tis time when i'm back here...but it scares me too coz wat the hell am i doing?!!!
the nicer u treat me the worse i felt coz i feel guilty n confused
i dowan to lose u as a fren..all i can say is tt i still love u but i love him too
You have received a message!
i noe tt tis is my bad n my fault i have no one else to blame
all i'm askin fer is tt u will still remain as my fren...a very special someone tt i nv wanna lose
from reply me:
You have sent a message!
yea thanks for being honest... more or less what i had expected.
You have sent a message!
of cuz i still love..you. anyway... do take care xj. =)
OH dear, i stopped sobbing. well what can i say... shit happens. be strong kelvin...im still gonna ask her out one last time and give her that perlini's silver i bought fer her...100 bucks i tell ya.. now it feels priceless.. just feel lucky that.. at least i was mentally prepared a yr ago.. if this shit had hit me earlier... say a yr ago.. i might have died.. bt now. im... tired.. just gonna chill... cry abit...secretly of cuz.. but i'll be alright.. this god damn shite hurts... not her.. i cant blame her..blame who? blame myself.. if i had been rich by 18.. i would have got to US with her.. but im too god damn poor now. its me... everything that goes wrong is me...its always me... im dissapointed.. haha thats a fukin understatement after the bombshell she dropped on me. i dunnoe what to say... just that i know this shit... and it aint gonna bring me down anymore.. oh god.. that sickening feeling growin in the pits of my stomach. time gonna stop... tell ya tell me.. anyone out there... do i wan to go to my friends with this? NO... handle it alone. bye
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